The girl I want to Be

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I have never found motivation in comparing myself to someone else. However, I’m super good at it! I seem to do it a lot, especially when I’m feeling insecure or when work is slow. I’m sure that this is a product of society, my own insecurities, my own judgment. My own hopes and dreams and the ways I’ve realized them, or the ways I haven’t.
There are still moments when I am diluted by the trap of comparing my struggle to someone else’s success (thanks Instagram, you’re helping here a lot!).

One day when I decided that I’m not gonna live the mainstream lifestyle, I sat down with myself and wrote some notes that I still love to read through. At that time I knew I had a long way to go, I just didn’t really know where I was trying to get to. So first thing I did was that I wrote down this question:

Who is the girl I want to be? What is she like?

I made a list of things about the person I wanted to be– the things I wanted to be defined by:

  • The girl I want to be wakes up and is thankful before she is anything else. She makes her coffee before the sun rises. And at midnight, she drives up to the lookout above town, just to be closer to the stars.
  • She is a firecracker, but she is tactful when it matters. The room feels different when she walks in.
  • She is thoughtful with her friendships and with her love. She gives neither away without consideration. She invests deeply, but is not afraid to walk away.
  • The girl I want to be is gentle. She does not judge others for their flaws. She does not judge herself for her failures.
  • The girl I want to be is graceful and confident. She doesn’t wait for new cards, but plays big with the ones she already has.
  • She knows her greatness, and doesn’t waste time on those who undervalue her.
  • She is humble. She seeks for any kind of feedback and listens. She wants to be better and knows that self-improvement does not always flow easily.
  • She gives graciously even when she does not have much to give.
  • She has strong boundaries. She understands her needs and makes them known. She does not settle.
  • The girl I want to be asks questions. She asks them well and she asks them often. She listens to the experiences of those who are different than she is, and she takes no answers personally.
  • She is willing to be wrong. She is willing to sound stupid. She knows that she isn’t right all the time and that she never will be. She finds strength in vulnerability.
  • The girl I want to be says no when she is overextended and asks for help when she needs it.
  • She stands up and speaks out for what she believes in, even when it is tiring, because it is the right thing to do.
  • She chases her dreams, every day, without apology or restraint. She looks doubt in the face and declares, “I see you, and I’m moving past you.”
  • She is a powerhouse; a warrior for her truth. And I will work to be more like her every day.

You are living in the space between the person you are and the person you want to be. The only one worth comparing yourself to is past versions of you.

 

Who are you today?
Who do you want to be?
Who will you be tomorrow?

 

Cheers to another amazing weekend!

Love,

U.

I turned into a Yoga person

 

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Almost a year ago, I found myself standing on the yoga mat, watching the sunrise and trying to practice some sun gazing before my sun salutation series. In a moment of reflection, I froze and thought to myself, “Oh God, am I one of those people now?

I just never thought I’d be the type of person who did yoga first thing in the morning, or read a spiritual book/day, for that matter. I never thought I would buy into any of the stuff yoga teaches.

But without thinking too hard about it, over the course of the past year, that is exactly what I have become.

A month before that particular moment I crashed physically and I couldn’t do any intensive exercises whatsoever. So I turned to yoga. I had done yoga before. In high school, my dad wanted me to visit some classes because he knew about the benefits. As many women do, I dealt with an eating disorder and body dysmorphia, and as a result, my relationship with yoga was not a healthy one. I viewed it as a way to burn calories. I don’t need to add that I really didn’t enjoy it.

My history with yoga was not one of self-discovery, grace, or acceptance. It was the opposite. So when I re-visited yoga a year ago, I didn’t expect to like it. But my friend had invited me, it was free, and I was feeling stressed, so I thought it was worth a try.

In that first class, I got frustrated and sweat my ass off. It was uncomfortable. It didn’t feel good. But for some reason, I went to another class. And another… It began to feel okay, then it even felt good. Then things started happening to me mentally. I began to notice thoughts as they came in. I started paying more attention to where my head goes when it wanders, and to shifting my thoughts to things that are actually beneficial.

I started being more present in my day to day life.
I actively started trying to let things go that weren’t serving me anymore… things that I didn’t want to– or have to– walk with anymore. My yoga practice helped me give myself permission to let those things go.
I challenged myself physically. I saw my muscles get more defined and watched myself get into poses I had scoffed at only months before. I touched my toes easily, something I had never in my life been able to do.
I challenged myself mentally. I learned to focus on my breath not only in class but in life. I started to focus on presence without even trying.
I realized that the principles of yoga are the same lessons I fought to learn my whole life. The same themes of resilience, self-care, kindness, and courage that I had tried so hard to teach myself were things that yoga was now reminding me of.

Yoga is now something I carry with me everywhere. It’s something I do when I seek peace and a place I go when I seek challenge.

I turned into a yoga person slowly. Sometimes we build walls around ourselves to keep something out. I peeked over the wall I had built to close out things like yoga– things that were challenging, that I associated with judgment and “can’t.” I never thought I could be good at yoga, not realizing that there was no such thing.

I became a yoga person by doing yoga. But to do it, I had to try something new. I would never have known I liked yoga if I let the wall stay where it was. I never would have tried it if I had let my expectations stay where they were.

What walls have you built around yourself? Have you built them to keep out people and things you are afraid of, or intimidated by?

Make just one crack in your walls. Let a little light in. You might surprise yourself. You might find yourself breaking them down completely, and standing in a field of flowers instead. But you will never know if you let the wall stand.

I became a yoga person both accidentally and purposefully.
What I have gained most is this: when we let go of our expectations, we make space for all the possibilities we could have never imagined.

 

Here is a sequence of Sun Salutations in a way as I like to practice it. However, you’ll find a lot of different variations of it, so just dig into the one that suits you best…

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3 Decisions to Make Today

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I am usually all about positivity and productivity. I’ve consciously decided that I’m gonna focus on it and create my reality around these good feelings. But I don’t wake up every day with those thoughts automatically programmed into my brain. I don’t wake up every day motivated to make the most of the day when I have the worst migrene and I’m not even in my home country at the time. I don’t wake up every day wanting to run in the forest or go for a looong bike ride and take 100 photos along it. Some days, the stoke lies in wanting to stay in bed aaaaall damn day and feeling like I’m bad at pretty much everything.

So for these days I came up with 3 things that add a bit of a juicey vibes in the melancholic state, although you can practice them ANY DAY (but especially when you feel like crap).

1. SAY NO TO NEGATIVITY

Listen to your thoughts, embrace the feelings around them and ban the negative ones in a structured way. A thought like “I am not good enough,” or “I will never get this done” will not help you be better, however, there’s definitely a reason why a thought like that appeared. Notice the thought, try to find the underlying feeling, find the opposite feeling and say BYEEEEE to this whole mess that is usually overwhelming and a complete BS. Eliminate negative thoughts from your brain. They are not allowed, kick them out. Slowly move toward replacing them with a positive or productive thought.

2. GSD = 4 get shit done!

Start with minor steps.

  1. Take a shower! Add a bit of –ing and use Vim Hoffs method of at least 15sec of a cold shower.
  2. Get dressed!
  3. Drink a glass of lemon water!
  4. ADD SOME -ING TO YOUR LIFE AND YOU WILL FEEL BETTER.

I keep a list of projects I want to accomplish. When I hear myself being negative or unproductive, I force myself to do something on the list, even though I reeeally don’t want to. I feel better 100% of the time once I get something done.

Whether it is making an appointment, sending an email, cleaning, taking out the recycling… whatever, doing SOMEthing gets the ball rolling. You don’t have to run a marathon. Just do something. And respond to every single thing that comes along the way.

3. TREAT YOURSELF

What does that mean to you? Think about what will feel good for your body and mind. And do that. For me, my morning routine is non-negotiable:

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It all starts with getting out of bed quite early (in the summer time before 6 a.m.), yoga with at least 20min of meditation, finished with some visualisation, a cold shower, hydrating skincare routine, eating a huge healthy meal, drinking a ton of water, writing in my journal, sitting in the sun, dancing my ass off and playing with my dog. Maybe it’s totally different for you.

Do what makes you feel good, worthy of love/success, and supported. YOU should be your #1 fan before anybody else. And if you don’t currently love yourself, ask yourself what changes you can make to head in that direction. Be kind to yourself.

Feeling bad from time to time is normal. Bad days are normal.

Making the most of every day is important ESPECIALLY when that day doesn’t involve a new country or a gorgeous face who I love to wake up to. Then, when you do have that inevitable bad day while on the road, you’ll be prepared to tackle it. To look it square in the eye and make the best of it anyway.

These three decisions, any day, anytime.

LOVE,

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BOL, the ultimate escape

There’s this island in Croatia that always leaves me speechless… It’s called Brač and the lovely town where I love to spend my time is named Bol.

I went on a solo trip this time. I just needed some time to regain my strengths and fill my cup with zero-planning days. Even though I was contemplating between visiting my human in Austria and going to the coast, I decided that some iodine infusion is probably way better idea. And beside that, I knew that visiting nice old fellas from Uni, Šime & Seba, would be the best idea possible! They are two extra active guys who always make sure that every day is fun and different.

After two days of acclimatisation (took a while, I know) I finally found some strengths to start exploring around and take some photos.

I’m not gonna drag more words out… I’ll just leave you with some photos…

 

– disclaimer no.1: I’m not a professional photographer/videographer but I LOVE making memories and recording them on the way.
– disclaimer no.2: I found that end of May and beginning of June is the perfect time for going here. There’s not a lot of tourists and temperatures are still bearable.
– disclaimer no.3: How the F is it possible that it literally takes you about an hour to edit a short video like this one?! Technology, I love you!
– disclaimer no.4: Scroll to the bottom to see the video! :))))

 

 

For more information visit BigBlue SPORT Brač <3

xo,

U.

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No Sun = No Fun

I’m this girl that will always wear bright collors. White or yellow hoodies, yellow bikinis, yellow headbands,… I feel as if I need to bring some light to places that haven’t seen the proper sunlight for a longer period of time. And by that I mostly reffer to cities.

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Happy banana wearing banana-ish sweater from S<3nian brand https://www.boopacks.com/

Actually, fifty thousand years ago, humans lived predominately in climates around the equator. Clothing was minimal and sun exposure was constant. And that’s where my body obviously got stuck.

As we migrated north, we endured sunless winters, wore more clothes and adapted to living indoors – away from the sun. So today, we live, sleep, eat and drive indoors away from the vitamin D-rich UVB sun rays. In Ljubljana, where I live, sunrays simply do not exist from November through March, making these months an emotional endurance event for me and many others. Studies have shown that seasonal mood disturbances and feeling low in the winter months is often found to have a connection with low serotonin levels, which may be related to lack of sunlight.

About ten years ago, researchers discovered that people who live in climates where natural sun exposure was the greatest experienced greater longevity!

When it comes to health, I just want to feel energetic, vital, focused and have a massive drive towards my goals. I want my brain to be sharp and I want to feel this amazing flow, where everything seems to be achievable. And I admit, I lost that. Completely. So I packed my essentials and drove South… to Croatia. Thinking that maybe some sun could have helped me regain my powers back…

 

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This place is pure ZEN!

So of course, Ursh hammered the sun exposure on her very first day. Being totally mind-blown from the beauty of the place where I stay, and actually extremely tired from everything that has been going on around me lately… I fell asleep and got sunburned as f*** (pardon my French amigos :) ). I am lucky to have a bit darker skin, so hopefully I’ll get a nice-brown skin in the next days.

But of course, first aid kit when it comes to sunburned skin is a proper cosmetic product (or few of them). I’m lucky to have Loccitane backed me up for the last couple of months and honestly this cosmetic brand is a big help for me to keep the “backstage” game strong. I love it and even though it’s not a secret that we built a nice collaboration, I always recommend their products to my family and friends as well.

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So this is my happy face, regaining back some serious strengths, and putting serums, gels and creams all over my face. I’ll definitely let you guys know how it works, but one thing is for certain: My roommates (sporty boys, who spend the majority of the day surfing or mountain biking) are already stealing some products from me!

Talk to you soon!

Hugs from the island <3

Ux

My Ayurvedic morning routine

The most recent Circadian Medicine research suggests that human genes have lost the ability to perceive and stay in tune with the circadian rhythms of nature. (1)

Which to me, totally makes sense. We live super fast-paced lifestyles and we are constantly surrounded with endless distractions which make us even more disconnected with our true self. And I’m not talking spiritually, I’m more relating this topic to physical body and having the ability to listen to the sound of our own heart.
The disconnection from the circadian rhythms is called chronodisruption.

Chronodisruption has been linked to a host of health concerns, including poor cognitive function, mood disorders, sleep disorders, diabetes, obesity, daytime sleepiness, reduced school performance, reduced driving reaction time, substance abuse, heart disease and some cancers. (2)

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The practitioner that thought me the most about reconnecting with myself came from Ayurvedic background. I must admit that at that time I definitely wasn’t connected with my body and I let it rush all over the place, constantly loosing stuff and feeling that being super disciplined is the only way to go. But of course, the worst was was the feeling of overheating that I had in my body and I was experiencing an intense weight gain/loss game which in the end resulted with thyroid malfunction.

I still have the drive but I’ve got my body back and in this post I’m gonna cover the best daily rutine that we created and that definitely works for me  p e r f e c t l y!

 
This morning routine can become very elaborate, so I have listed the basics that I usually cover every day:

(I’m Vata-Pitta type of person/body so this is what suits me best when it comes to esteblisishing perfect life for an overthinking, overdriven, overdisciplined, over-over-over…-personality I have.)

 

  • Arising early in the morning, preferably before the sunrise
  • Drinking a large glass of warm lemonade (I put collagen in this one as well)
  • Waking up with a cold shower
  • Scraping my tongue with a copper tongue scraper (stimulates digestion and elimination) – I’m not really keen to this one yet
  • Oil pulling (I sometimes do this while I’m showering)
  • Washing my teeth
  • Monkey Mind Journaling (I’m still impressed with the outcome that this one has on my brain) –> Heard about this one here for the first time and after did my own little research on google :)
  • Basic To-Do List (sometimes I start filling it up while writing in the first journal)
  • 10-15min of morning yoga session, followed with a brisk exercises (Perfect if you can do the exercises while performing nasal breathing) –> exercising is most optimal in the morning, between 6am and 10am, when the body is in its Kapha phase and at its strongest physically (3)
  • 5-10min of breathing exercise (they call it pranayama)
  • 5-10min od meditation (I’m going to cover this in the next post where I’m gonna write about the technique that literally changed my life)
  • BREAKFAST (According to my Vata-Pitta body type)

… And then I start with my regular work day which is a mixture of running from one casting to another, a lot of emails, meetings and writings. I will probably have my lunch somewhere between 1 and 2 p.m. if possible and then work a bit more till 5 p.m., preferably not longer.
In the afternoon I usually experience some funky feelings which can sometimes result in forgetting and loosing stuff all over the place – logical consequence if you work behind the computer screen for the majority of the day. That’s usually the time of the day when I go for a nice walk in the forest or a quick longboard session to the city centre. If possible I will call up my bestie and sometimes do a nice meditation session which is super nice as well. I just need to do some calming things to restore my over-active nervous system.

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This routine always brings me back to the place where I can easily reconnect with myself and start feeling the rhythms of mother nature. It’s funny how people tend to forget about simple things that can make life so easy! Do your own research and find what works for you best!

Ux

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